OMG!
100 is a big number. However, being a senior in college and not having any solid plans for the next year is hard the fathom. Especially now that my education career will permanently be over. All my mom asked of me was to graduate college. OH! and get a job in order to be successful. I feel like I'll be letting her down.
Reality is finalizing its way into my life.
I don't know how to handle it.
I'm scared.
I've spend a lot of time this week with myself (I was sick with the stomach virus too). I realized I spent 10% of that time wondering when I would be able to eat again and 90% of that time thinking about the future. I wonder if I'm the only one in the entire Senior Class of Emory who is in denial. The past 22 years of my life, I completed each new journey knowing where and what I would do next. Now, I'm completely lost.
Okay...
So I do have ideas of what I want to do, but I feel like I'm not qualified enough. Although, I've lost my religiosity in the midst of being a religious scholar, I'm going to have to keep this problem in my prayers.
I should be happy that I'm able to eat today and look forward to my Spring Break cruise to the Caribbean in March :)
