Herald Square

I live across the 'World's Largest Store'.

The World's Largest Macy's. 

They put a very large Christmas tree up.

Holiday is around the corner - literally.

I hope my mom comes up for Thanksgiving. 

That is all I'm thinking. 

Timing is Beautiful

Timing is beautiful.

It really is.

Taking that one extra moment before walking out your door - perhaps to make sure your keys are not under your pillow, throwing something out of your purse you may not need, remembering you forgot something so you run back into your apartment. 

These moments literally set you up for what might happen to you on a particular day, or who you'll run into. 

It's all about timing. 

What are the odds?

44.

Hello Friends :)

Soho-Crosby St.

I walk by this everyday and it's only today I took notice- so I took a photo via iPhone. 

It's been 44 days in New York. 

STILL can't believe it. 

Hello Home.

It's still so surreal. 

It's surreal that I am living in New York City.

It's also surreal the view I get every morning thanks to my friend who's been lending me her bed for the past month.

I can't believe I've been here for over a month. Now that's crazy. 

I'm lovin' it though. 

I love the style, the fashion, the lifestyle although it's still taking a lot of time for me to adjust. 

I'm lovin' it despite the many many hours of running around the city, sweating, just to get to my next job in time. 

I love the shopping, the walking and dollar pizzas. 

I wish I had time to go into detail about all that I've been experiencing here, but here's a quick update:

I found an apartment in Williamsburg.

It fell through.

 I found an apartment in SoHo.

 It fell through.

I found another apartment in Herald Square.

I'm moving in tomorrow. 

3x's a Charm.

I transferred a job.

I quit.

I got another job.

I want to quit.

I got another job.

I think I'll love it.

3x's a Charm.

My experiences here have made me appreciate the things I hated about my suburban life at home. I can't wait to go back and wake up to birds chirping and the morning fog. I can't wait to wake up sneezing because there are trees and grass everywhere. I can't wait to dig my feet into my carpet and use a large bathroom. I can't wait to sit down and just watch hours of television on my blue couch. I can't wait to have good PHO! 

Without cable, Netflix has been by bestfriend next to Hulu. My shows are back on, Glee and Grey's.

Glee has me laughing and Grey's got me crying EVERY episode.

The weather here's been crazy. I'll be sweating one day, and wearing sweaters the next. 

It's always raining, and of course I sold my Burberry wellies just before I arrived.

So with my employee discount, I finally bought the Boa Hunter wellies, which are way to tall for my short legs, but still a keeper.

oh ny.

I can officially say I'm not a tourist in New York. 

I can't say I'm a resident.

It's been exactly 19 days since I flew up to NYC in hopes to live here.

I moved up here knowing that the only job I'd have for a couple weeks would be an unpaid, nevertheless I was so thrilled. Just a week before I left Atlanta, I was packing up my belongings from my Buckhead apartment to move back home when I got the news that I'd be interning here in the city. I had no solid plans, didn't have any money saved up, and no apartment. 

I've had the most stressful time, but when I walk around the New York, I feel like it's home. What stresses me is that I have no control over which apartments I can live in or how fast I can make money when it's only been 2.5 weeks. I'm totally out of my comfort zone because I can't get control of things with factors like income and housing. These things take time.... I realized. 

So I make the most of the situation simply by enjoying everything else about New York. Stress is such a potent thing, causing me to get sick and have constant headaches. The food here is ridiculously expensive compared to what I'm used to. I never thought twice about buying meals for $5-6 dollars, but doing that 2-3xs a day plus a cup of coffee, really adds up. So I've managed to scope out cheap pizza or Chinese food... horrible I know. I've never eaten so unhealthy and so much fast food. I didn't even bring my running shoes, so working out hasn't been an option for me. 

I've had thoughts about how much easier things would be if I could just go home and drive my car everywhere. Rent would be so much cheaper and I'd be able to eat and workout but it's not worth it to me. There's so many opportunities here and I'm here for one thing, my future. It seems stupid to think that I'm going through all this for an internship, but it's so worth it. I look forward to the three days I get to go in, and I never hesitate to wake up so I can take the QNR to Canal St. and get to working.

I never really knew what I wanted to focus my future in, but I know that fashion will be a  huge part of it. My internship is something I enjoy, and I don't ever dread going into work, like I would my retail jobs. It's a lot of hands on work, rather than sitting at a computer all day. The day goes by so quickly, I never feel like I've been there all day. The best part is that I got here right before NY Fashion Week.

Not only did I get to work and attend fashion shows, but I got an awesome front row seat at the Monique Lhuillier show. I got to see notable people in the industry like Andre Leon Talley and Brad from the Rachel Zoe Project. I usually don't get star struck because I see celebs often (like the other day I saw Tracy Morgan walk into Duane Reade and I glared at him and strutted off :) but when I saw Brad... I thought to myself "OMG!!! Shut the front door," just as Rachel would say, and I managed to get a pic of him on my iPhone. 

Emma Roberts was interviewed on E! at the show and when I saw clips of the Monique show, I recognized my arm in the background. It was nearly perfect.

Here are a few pics via my iPhone.

Find Brad! So close, so far away. 

Right before the start of the show!

Note the red arrow point at Brad :)

Loved this dress.

Yes, the models are super tall and thin. I felt like a hobbit next to one. 

It's been pretty surreal. My first show I worked was Costello Tagliapietra, and I had the biggest smile the whole time (inside smile) because I couldn't believe I was really at a show. Even during the run-through I was so excited. Having an internship I enjoy seems to be my only incentive to keep on going. These next few months are going to be hard but it's so worth it. 

This has been the perfect end to my crazy summer. I finally know what I want my life to be like and instead of feeling nostalgic, I'm looking forward. 

valentino perfection.

I cried.

 

It's perfect. $885 worth's perfect.

Thank you Valentino. 

I'd be invincible with these. 

Photo: www.saksfifthavenue.com

therapeutic writing

I never thought writing could be so therapeutic?

You don't have to be ashamed to tell your journal the truth and it's relieves all the pressures and anxiety pent up inside. I've found myself writing down what I'm feeling and it's been helping me get through the days. 

I spill.

I don't censor anything, even my darkest thoughts.

Then I re-read it and realize how insignificant my feelings were. 

thank you adele

So little to say but so much time

Despite my empty mouth the words are in my mind

Please wear the face, the one where you smile

Because you lighten up my heart when I start to cry

Forgive me first love, but I'm tired

I need to get away to feel again

Try to understand why

Don't get so close to change my mind

Please wipe that look out of your eyes

It's bribing me to doubt myself

Simply it's tiring

This love has dried up and stayed behind

and if I stay I'll be alive

Then choke on words I'd always hide

Excuse me first love, but we're through

I need to taste the kiss from someone new

Forgive me first love, but I'm too tired

I'm bored to say the least and I, I lack desire.

Forgive me first love.

First Love - Adele

She read my mind and wrote it down better than I'd ever be able to verbalize it.

reflection: the real world.

Life's been kicking my ass. 

I haven't broken down to tears yet. 

The realities of reality is really overwhelming. I have to work to pay rent, work to pay off debt, work to eat, work to drive and drive to work, work to have fun, work because I've been cursed with an addiction of shopping. I have to work just to be able to work. All this hard work and I have nothing to show at the end of the month.

I've hardly been emerged into what most people consider the "real world". It's still kicking my ass. 

I'm so glad I cut things out of my life. 

Otherwise, I'd be broken. 

It's liberating. 

 

valentine's day

I understand this is being written days after Valentines. 

Is Valentine's Day overrated?

We spend so much money buying gifts and going out to eat on this one day, when it can be done any other day.

Love should be spontaneous. 

 

But Valentine's Day is sweet. I admire the people who go all out on this day.  Anyways even though the official celebration of love is over, here are a few ways you can keep it alive every other day of the year. 

Movies

These movies are similar in that they tell several love stories amongst people who are connected to one another. It's very cute and just fun to watch when you need a dose of love :)

1.Love Actually

 

2. Valentine's Day

 

 

Songs

1. Today Was a Fairy Tale - Taylor Swift

It's off the Valentine's Day Soundtrack.

 

2. Valentine - Kina Grannis

 

 

As for me, I celebrated Valentine's day with simplicity and it was perfect.